Softening to Saturn

by Ladi Abundance

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released March 29, 2015

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Track Name: Returning To Saturn
Saturn returns to me, with a big slap of mortality
Coupled with a sign of relief that I no longer have to please
I shed my skin unveiling something more refined
My spirit is cleaner as my shell tells tails of finite
Glimpses of goddess energy trickle down my soul in a slow clap towards metamorphosis
To use this platform for purpose, for honest revelation
The exposure of fragility, the exposure of strength and hope.
Track Name: Let Me Out
And myself kept saying let me out
And myself kept saying let me out

Don't walk so fast, don't sing too high
Don't be afraid, don't tell no lie

Don't blink so much, or get drunk or pride
Don't lose that sparkle in your eye

Don't be so loud don't be so quiet
Don't ashamed, now don't be shy

And myself kept saying let me out
And myself kept saying let me out
Track Name: Rhyme or Reason
I search for rhyme or reason, it takes change of season to find
I gotta define my sense of believing
I search for rhyme or reason, it takes change of season to find
I gotta define my sense

I'm feeling fresh, like a brand new day
No longer perplexed, no longer led astray
I feel alive, like a fire wild
Finally got a reconnection with my inner child
I'm feeling free, like the roaring sea
Like the coming of the tide has brought me back to me
And I can be in my entirety, no longer will I lie to me
I gotta be the brighter me to share it with the world
I feel I'll soar, open a new door, paving my new way, life won't be a chore
I got the bricks, I can handle it
Place one at a time, removing the pricks
I gotta fly, soaring my new sky
No more wanting, no more wishing, no more questions why
I got my sisters here beside me and the power that resides in me
And everything that's necessary to believe

I had a plan
To make it on my own, to create a new home
A place to live in. space for forgiveness, I would try to hone
Be easy on myself, create the inner wealth
For me to grow stronger I would no longer beat up on myself
Creating a tool box of life, cutting myself loose with my knife
Bonding myself to the ones that would serve me
Surrounding myself with those who deserve me
Warm myself with love and sun, as I embrace the ever changing season
Life's mystery encases me without a reason


One step and now I found my way
Got sick of sitting and wishing a brighter day
I had to leave all those troubles behind yeah
So I could finally cross that line yeah
Proclaim my love to my shine
And now I step into a place where I can't be defined
Living in freedom, step into my own
Like the dog who has just dug up her bone
Now I finally see the light, stand in my power so I can fight
For all I believe in, now I am seeing clearly in delight
Abundance gratitude abound, deeper understanding I've found
Within the cracks of my perceiving, is love that is beyond reason
Track Name: Cobwebs
So here I am, edging on prosperity, making dreams reality
As I try to decifer between what's mine and what someone else said to me
And my ego it unravels as a fresh path I must travel
And the microscopes out, but tell me how to I get rid of these

Cobwebs
Of what might have been
Degressing in time
Leaving me in madness
All these cobwebs
Are getting in my way
Makes it hard to stay
Keeping me from the clarity underneath

So here I am in a place where it's all in front of me
Gotta look at my priorities
making room for the clearer day,
where I won't think about all the mess I made
I'm afraid of the skeletons in the closet
Coming out to get me when I least expect it
I thought they were gone, they resurrected
Tell me how to I get rid of these cobwebs?

I am in perplexion once again
How did I let that bitch and man
Get me caught back up in ego games
Sending me right round the twist again
Track Name: Betray My Heart
Something carries me away, it asks me not to stray from it
Something gets into my soul and it takes hold so I can leave
Some thing carries me away, it asked me not to stray from it
Something takes over me and whispers clearly to NOT betray my heart

To not betray my heart

Oh no I won't betray my heart,
I won't betray my heart,
I won't betray my heart

Calling me, moving me, back to my heart, back to my heart
Track Name: Got Off At Your Station
In a situation, will I go home in the end?
My participation is something I can't defend
An alleviation to get me out of my mind
Destiny creation? Or am I left running blind?

Cos I was running
My soul defined
My angels strumming
A clear desire
But I got off at your station

Standing right in front of me
Got my curiosity letting me down
In a new reality wasn't what I planned for me
I don't know how
to step away from this moment and not hold it again
Cos I never bargained for this kind of friend
Track Name: More Time With My Soul
Feeling neglected, my baby cries to me
As I had suspected, in places she can't see
She has collected all her discrepancies
She has resented missed opportunities

But something's got a hold of me now
Like my spirit, has taken a vow
Like my contract is written in ink
In my forehead into my skin

I gotta spend more time with my soul
Stop the ignoring its call right now
I gotta spend more time with my soul
The alternative's I fall, fall down

Cos I have been playing with life's conditioning
I have been straying from my own reckonings
I have been saying that this is all there is
No more delaying, into life's depth of bliss

When something's got a hold of me now
Like my spirit, has taken a vow
Like my contract is written in ink
In my forehead into my skin

I gotta spend more time with my soul
Stop the ignoring its call right now
I gotta spend more time with my soul
The alternative's I fall, fall down

Pointing fingers taking blame mentality rearranged
I'm unprotected fragile and getting hard to manage
All the shallow of the world has come crashing in to greet me
Gotta step into my being the only one to free me

Right Now
Track Name: Be Ya Ba Bo
cartoon cut out of the picturesque boy
The one who brings you pain and then brings you joy
The one who's always mocking and then acting coy
The one who comes a knocking but still plays with toys
He is the picture that is oh so fine
I wanna hang him up, I wanna make him mine
But then he's gotta sit next to a pre-exisiting shrine
And is there room for both> and have we got the time?

A treasure chest that is turned inside out
He's shiny on the outside but what's he all about?
A man of mystery he ain't the one to show
And we ain't letting go, we're in the great unknown
But he's a magnet, and he has pulled me in
So I can't see where I end and he begins
And if we're playing games, well then I wanna win

I just waited for your phone call
But you wasn't gonna type it
So I wasn't gonna fight it, oh no
I just waited for your letter
But you wasn't gonna write it
So I wasn't gonna find it, oh no

So despite my better sense of inner knowing
I am taken to a place where I just have to keep on going
And in so many ways out energies are flowing
My heart's getting weaker and the seeds are sewing
of love

Don't say it if you do no turning back,
it comes with projections that I can't contract
And now they are alive
So you're gonna have to step up to my own demise

It feels like thunder and rain sometimes
When you say goodbye
And turn out the light
It feels like drowning to save your life
And you do despite the initial fight
It feels like hunting a beast that's wild
Just to make her mild as she makes her pile
Of hopes and dreams on the movie screen
Who she soon will be if she stays in peace

You had me flowing in the breeze like
be ya ba bo bay ya ba day
be ya ba bo bay ya ba day
Track Name: Those Lies
I see that look in your eye as you're taking a spy
You think you wanna try but then you don't quite know what to do
Drink in hand as you're taking a stand
You got your friend at your side as you swallow your pride
You ask to go outside so we can converse for a moment or two

You see me like a painting
See me like a picture
You think that you want me
But you don't know how it hits ya
To know that I am raw
Know that I am real
Know that I can stumble
Know that I can feel

It is the topic of the moment and we're both the one who chose it
It is me that does suppose it and it's you will soon know it
I'm gonna flow it to your ears so here we go
Its the predicament we're sittin in, reality we live
Is it the artist, or the man?
Is it the idea, or the real woman?
Is it the person that we see?
Or our projection of what we'd like to?

And how can we live up to someone else's idea of who we are?
With their tunnel vision, they don't even see who's really driving the car
To put it all aside, and live in reality
Like two raw soul, is just a philosophy

You've got me telling those lies boy
I don't know who you are
Track Name: Is It Up To You?
Well I have been losing sleep again
Heart pounds as my mind comprehends
Something that's at its beginning
But projections bring us to the end
And I'm not used to this kind of walking
On a path I had long ago forgot
Yeah it's usually me doing the talking
Right now it is you who writes the plot

Is it up to you?
Your truth
My bruise
Your youth
My pleasure

Do I need the proof?
To lose
My need
Your greed
My leisure

Well I tried to box it for a while
But boxes make us run for a mile
So much information to compile
It all goes out the window when we smile
And I'm not used to this kind of meeting
In a place where my feet don't touch the ground
In a place where our two hearts are competing
For who's heart is the last one to be found


Is it up to you?
Your truth
My bruise
Your youth
My pleasure

Do I need the proof?
To lose
My need
Your greed
My leisure

Standing on dirty streets my heart's beating and tied up on you
Track Name: Right Here
To be here, right here

Don't wanna have to psychoanalyze, gotta realize
Gotta get into the swing of it, gotta truly live it
In a moment I'll be thinking of you
Not gonna look into the past, wear that painful mask, gonna bask
For a moment in the truth the blueness of the sky is above me now

To be here, right here
Just to be here
To be here, right here
Where there's no fear
To be here, right here
In the present, the present moment
Not in the future
Not in the past
To be here

I've been chasing those dreams
I've been caught in between
I've been figuring out, what is
I've been lost in my mind
I've been running round wild
I've been part of that maze that phase
But there's a something in your soul
that has me calling for another array
Like a something in your soul
that takes a hold like it is calling for me
We asked for time, so its a crime, to not abide
Step outside, where it shines
Be soul kind, stop your mind

And be here, right here
Just be here
You gotta let it go
So you can know
Not in the future
Not in the past
Be here right here